Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Oh wait, I forgot. I am a bitch. Or was. But I'm trying to change that, really.
Everyone please go listen to Back to December. The last time you saw me is still burned in the back of your mind: you gave me roses and I left them there to die.
(This is me, swallowing my pride, standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night.)
Sometimes I think about the choices I could have made and. I'm sorry. (I can't muster the strength to apologise for it now, but. Sigh.)
ALSO THAT WAS THE WRONG ANSWER sigh but thanks ):
Can I just immerse myself in fandom and disappear this was in general a rather bad day. I mean like. Let me just talk about how Nino is a reluctant brat who really, really loves his bandmates and how they're all idiots and Jun is such a tease and Aiba is ridiculous and this was all your idea wasn't it Aiba-chan (OH OOPS the honourific came out) and Ohno's just pliant (ALTHOUGH HE IS SECRETLY THE WORST) and oh Sho, oh Sho, isn't this wonderful and your bandmates love youuu happy 3rd decade soon ♥
It's so easyyyy. (Hey isn't this easy~ [I need to stop quoting Taylor Swift.]) Oh fandom.
16.01.2012
Um acad matters, Miss Chen is HILARIOUS she's ridiculous HAHA and counsellor's talk, OMG ONE OF THEM WAS HILARIOUS she seemed just so EXASPERATED SOMETIMES HAHA I CAN'T. But yea!
MBTI test after that! I got INFJ again, which is the same result Claire's test got for me. Sigh. Time-waster. But it was quite cool! Weiqi was ~applying what she learnt~. She's an ENTP. The Singaporean bulk is ISTJ, but we had like ZERO ISTJs and A BUNCH OF INFJs, and INFJ make up 1% of the population LOL. WE ARE UNICORNS, EVERYBADEH.
Anyway 'cos we ended early (1400!) I asked Weiqi if she wanted to go for training and she said she wanted to see FSD so we went! It was. Bloody hot HAHA. But yea it was... interesting I guess!
ALSO WEIQI.
Me: I swear I can get tan by flying lorh so near the sun.
Weiqi: Wait you actually fly?
Me: Um ya? SYFC?
Weiqi: THEY LET YOU FLY?
Me: WHAT DO YOU THINK I DO LOL.
Weiqi: IDK JUST THEORY AND SIM???
OH WEIQI.
17.01.2012
SNaPP. I serously hate the gender stereotypes. There are LITERALLY BILLIONS OF MALES AND FEMALES IN THE WORLD. Stop stereotyping us! Stop saying we're like this or like that or we act a certain way or like it when we act a certain way! I DON'T FUCKING CARE. Sigh. It's kind of. Really annoying. Maybe I'm just !!! but I think I've learnt a lot over the past few years and I just hate gender boudaries and associations and other bullshit. Sigh.
Also I really disagree with some of what they said but maybe that is because I am a hopeless romantic but seriously! Some things just left me flabberghasted. Like. What in the actual fuck?
ANYWAYS left for flight after that, TOOK THE WRONG TRAIN and ended up late sigh but apparently Raman was later lol he went for lunch, so yea it was. Okay? But my flight was. UGHH. I am super not used to Raman. To quote this PPL guy who was under Raman: "Must get used to his fighter style". Idk la he's! Demanding but definitely not a bad thing la. Also: flew Hotel. Again! (Juliet died 'cos of some error I HAVE NO FATE WITH FJ APPARENTLY.)
BUT GUESS WHO'S NOT GOING TO GET THEIR PPL ): Sigh I'm. Damn sure I'm going to fail already ahhhh ahhh ahhh okay. Chill. Sigh :/
Also js halfway through the flight while descending he did a 60 degree descending turn at a speed of 130+ knots and HOLY FUCK. WORST Gs EVER, AND I HAVE NEVER BEEN THIS AWARE OF MY NASAL CAVITIES. Also the ear pressure! Like the nose pressure (WHAT) was just uncomfortable and the Gs disconcerting (felt like a giant's hand was trying to shove me through the floor of the plane) but the ear pressure. FUCKING PAIN. My god then I couldn't do Valsalva Maneuver until I landed I was like WELL FUCK THIS SHIT it was super. fucking. pain. It was only in my right ear but ARGH.
Also my flight just. Ugh the fuckiest. The horizon was fuzzy 'cos of cloud cover then I couldn't really select attitude right and I was just. ): And then just! MY HANDS. They has no control. (In more ways than one sigh.) And well not just climb/descend fucked up checks (hesitant and nervous and MISSING OUT ON THINGS also the aircon master didn't get turned on until we switched to PLA like. The worst.) and even worse SCREWED R/T LIKE MAD sigh I just. It's not that I can't do it but. :/ I really hate it when people fuck with my line of thought la and. Yea. Also I cut someone and well I was never really aware of it but someone cut my R/T during descend to downwind today and I was like WELL FUCK and ATC had to get to us later to figure out what happened sigh. Gonna keep out a conscious ear. Also I have this knack for picking the WORST TIMES to start my R/T the moment I'm about to push the button someone will start their R/T then I will be unceremoniously but unintentionally cut off. Sigh. And I really can't climb/descend! But I was better on the plane than in the sim. A GOOD THING but still suck. Ughhh.
Idk I think I was just. Off today but yea. My checks and R/T should be perfect by now and it's not like I have never done it I'VE DONE IT MULTIPLE TIMES and I can actually do it without a break in between but today it was just. Ugh. Terrible sigh :/
Oh after flight I saw Wairen in Ops Room, his flight hold 'cos of Cat 1. My flight was kinda chopped at the end but we managed everything while PLA put us on standby for rejoin la, but it was rushed! So yeaaa. ALso instructors talking about weather over radio. Just. HAHA.
Sigh sigh BUCK UP HUI XIAN ):
Also Raman's advice to me is to keep talking to myself to stay focussed, which is basically HOW I LIVE LIFE but it's kinda awk because I AM IN A PLANE AND WE ARE INTERCOMLY LINKED but yea.
When I came back and checked FB everyone was all "FUCKING HOT" and I was in Khatib in the middle of some army camp staring at the Cat 1 LOL JUST. YEA.
Okay I. Have to go now like seriously. Also I am upset as fuck because well I'm tired of being everyone's doorstop. But yea. Just. Oh god fuck.
Why is this like this.
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