Thursday, January 12, 2012
I'm kind of in Bio RA.
UM. UM. I DON'T. I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS HAPPENED OKAY but omg it just did now I'm kind of torn and gosh I need to talk to someone stat! (Unfortunately everyone I know happens to be a genius and doesn't give me accurate information! I fully blame Juls and Wn for landing me in this state lol if not I wouldn't have signed up for some Raffles Academies and I also would not have been falsely assured that it's perfectly plausible to take up SYFC while in JC.)
Okay tbh I'm really okay with this but it is jarring because I am possibly the least smart person I know and you don't see non-smart people in RA! And it's ya oh gosh how am I al;sdjflkasjf;ljdas;lfkjdas okay. I really can't blog about this right but I know all the pros and cons of this and in the end I'm going to take it I know because I really really do like bio and it's such a waste if I don't, fate has given me a chance I might as well take it right? I mean like ): I'm so not-smart oh gosh okay I really need to stop talking and thinking about this I really go into a state of panic every time haha after the briefing I was just like FUCK FUCK FUCK and I had to put Niji on repeat and I still felt like my heart was going to leap out my throat and I should not be this nerve-wracked but I AM. NOT SMART.
Oh gosh I am going to hold the form until Monday so I can think about the fact that I ACTUALLY WENT FOR THE BIO RA PLACEMENT TEST AND SUBSEQUENTLY GOT IN to the point where I stop panicking. Okay I don't think it's going to work haha fuck I just described to Cheese the worst case scenario where all my grades drop because of my ~commitments~ I quit RA and get chopped from SYFC oh gosh. Oh gosh.
You see how I blogged yesterday about being an anxious person and how it was different from being a panicker? Yep. This is me being uselessly anxious tbqh. But oh gosh I never thought I'd be this kind of person in JC or in any other learning institution (this kind of person: someone with 2 CCAs and an RA or sth) so this is like. What am I doing with my life!? Ahhhh ): Okay. Be calm.
Omg I can't bring myself to blog rn HAHA okay wait wait.
Went to school today, I LEFT MY HOUSE AT 0700 LIKE A BOSS LOL. Saw Xenia at Marymount so we walked in together!
Me: SORRY I'M KIND OF HIGH.
Xenia: No you're just how you are all the time.
Went to MPH, sat around. Um TALKS. HAHA. That's the main gist but well there is a lot of scariness going on haha I AM KIND OF WORRIED FOR THE WORKLOAD like you know something's bad when even the teachers are all "THIS IS GOING TO BE BAD, THE WORST OKAY." Idk I have seniors and some of them seem well-adjusted and some seemed like they were on the verge of going mad. So yea I'm just. Going to pray I end up well-adjusted LOL.
Anyways it was rather... uneventful haha. Okay I shall talk about MY 6.4 OUTING INSTEAD :D
HAHA anyway reached Tanah Merah at like... 1715? LOL Claire came to fetch me, then got there and played murderer HAHA. And well DID A LOT OF STUPID THINGS LIKE TRIED TO PLAY CAPTAIN'S BALL ON THE ROAD AND ALMOST GOT RUN DOWN, then decided to play DOUBLE WHACKO ON THE ROOF. I can't stand us lol we're so amazing. It was kinda hilarious though!
Um tbh I'm really glad I went because I was kinda hesitant at first but it was really nice to see them after so long (FOUR YEARS GUYS) and I can stand around and pretend to be nostalgic about RGS with my classmates, but when you're talking about something that happened literally half a decade ago you suddenly realise that this is what the bittersweetness of memory is like. All the things we went through, so ridiculous and stupid! Gosh.
Also guys guys! THE BOYS ARE FUCKING TALL. Although I am still taller than some of them and I was the tallest girl there lolol. And the girls all look the same but WELL YUI FAI'S HAIR HAHAHA I was so stunned! (Qian Hui: ... OH MY GOD YOU'RE YUI FAI!? Omg throughout the entire day I was wondering HEY WHO IS THIS GUY omg you're YUI FAI!?) HAHA I JUST.
Also an amazing moment: while playing double whacko, Irene was whacking and we got into a frenzy of shouting and pointing, and she was running around like mad and Joel shouted GOT BOMB GOT BOMB!! and bent over with his arms over his head, AND IRENE COMPLIED. HAHAHHAHA. JUST. I COULDN'T.
We swapped and updated numbers so now I have their updated numbers :D♥ Planning to go out again soon! And I guess I'd really thought 4 years of never-speaking would have eroded our bonds, but just. Oh 6.4'07♥
And Sarah! Gosh I can't believe she's leaving, again, but. I'm happy for her, but at the same time ridiculously sad because gosh, why? But of course I'm happy for her and I love her and I wish her the best, the absolute best because I love Sarah ♥
Anyway it's been a long day, and I'm going to sleep now although my hair is still slightly damp. NIGHTS ♥
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